Life Today as a Follower of Christ

Lately, or should I say over the past several months, I've been learning the truth about humanity and the world. I've gotten older, I've been given more freedom, and I've had to make some decisions own my own, so naturally, I have been more immersed into reality and less confined by the "Christian bubble".  I am extremely grateful for my Christian upbringing, and I know that the Christian school environment, Sunday school gatherings, and sheltered social life has protected from many harmful things in life. But now that I am a teenager, and life really leaves no other choice, I have become exposed to lifestyles and trends outside Christianity. At first, it was scary, and I thought it was all terrible. I was so comfortable and content with my sheltered Christian life. My child- like faith had been so dependent on the rules and morals that my parents instilled in me. But the inevitable, or what I believe to be unavoidable, soon happened. I started to become curious about the way my friends outside of Landmark and Church were living, and then I became fascinated. Before long, I had let down my guard and began to dabble in ways outside of my Christian foundation. That was just the beginning of learning the world for me. Most people know my testimony and that I personally invited Jesus to live in me and guide my heart a couple years ago. I knew when I made that commitment that accepting Jesus doesn't make me excusable or an exception to sin and the evil in the world. It set me apart, but it didn't remove me from the world completely. Since dedicating my life to Christ, I have lived by the verse in the Bible in which God calls us to live in the world but not to be of the world. Also, since making that decision, Satan has tried even harder than before to destroy me. This year especially, I have consciously put myself in situations that are messy, unstable, and potentially dangerous. I recognize that I can't fulfill my purpose as a follower of Christ if I purposely avoid life outside of Church and school. Because of what my mom would call my tendency to gravitate towards messy situations and brokenness- temptation, sin, destruction, and brokenness have been all around me. Though I continue to seek guidance from the Lord and wise council, my feet have slipped from time to time. Sometimes my judgement gets fogged with what the world says is ok and mixes in with what the Bible and my faith says is good. I can't pretend that I always make the right choices or that I am not tempted, and because I want people to see Jesus in me, I believe people also need to see my imperfections. Over the past year or two, I have made wrong choices, I have used poor judgement, I have temporarily forgotten who I was, and I have experienced brokenness within myself, and I recognize the wrong in all of it. I claim my mess and I own it, but I have given it all to God, who forgives and makes me new. It is so hard to live in this world as a seventeen year old, especially as a seventeen year old follower of Christ. Sometimes I feel like the entire world is against me and is trying to make me fall. But again, I proclaim, and I will continue to proclaim, that Christ is victorious in and over EVERYTHING. Even in the most trivial times, the darkest moments, and seemingly hopeless circumstances, the Lord overcomes. I know I have written similar posts to this before, but God's love never seizes to amaze me! There is nothing greater than Christ's affection for us, and his heart for his children. When he sees us slip and fall, he is always the first one there to pick us up. He is our healer, our comforter, our protector, and our giver of life, and without him, we are weak. Apart from Jesus, there is no permanent cure for depression, no sincere joy or peace, no total healing for brokenness, and ultimately no eternal life. God is good, and I am so thankful for his grace. I pray for the people in my life that have yet to grab hold of Christ's promises, and I pray that they may see a glimpse of his goodness through me. I pray for the Christians in this world, that we may not lose sight of truth and hope. His hope is everlasting and unfailing and we can rest in the peace of his promises.